havinq probz wit muh family ...

haizh .. im riily strezzed & depressed so much ...
i couldnt get 2 sliip , tinkinq of muh probz so much ..
i've so many probz & im juz bearinq it alone ...
haizh ...


muh dad haz got 2 noe im preg .. @ ferz he wanted me 2 abort it ...
but suddenly e nurse gav hym a bad news tt e baby iz too big 4 em abort ...
wooh !!! wad a relieve .. i didnt hav 2 go thru e pain of abortinq a baby ..
& killinq an innoncent lyfe ... haizh ...

i gotto noe tt im 7 & a half monthz preg now ...
e doc told me tt muh stomach iz too small 4 a 7 - 8 monthz preg ...
so he azked me 2 go ferr an ultrasound scan laz wk ..
2 check itz gender & if itz healthy or not ..
unfortunately ... i didnt went 4 e scan ...
so i didnt noe wadz itz gender or if itz healthy or not ...

many hav been sayinq tt by muh stomach & muh activeness of walking,
it'll b a girl ...
but of me gettinq close 2 baby boyz ,
itz a boy ....
well .. i riilly didnt noe whther i wan it 2 b a girl or a boy ...


mickey wanz a boy .. well .. hez a guy ...
so if itz a boy ,
of course tt baby will get wadeva it wanz ...
mozt guyz love baby boy ..
not many love baby girl ...


if god wanna giv me a girl den its good ...
if god wanna giv me a boy itz aso good ...
i juz accep it whther its a boy or a girl ...
after all itz an innoncent lyfe & a pure baby ...
i juz wizh tt it will b a healthy & clever baby ..
& may evry1 love hym or her ...


since muh family gotto noe tt im olrdy preg ,
muh dad haz spread e newz 2 muh dad & mom siblingz ...
well @ ferzt i waz ashame 2 b a young mom ...
& especially a YOUNG SINGLE MOM ...!!!
but wad 2 do ...?
tinqz tt don wanna 2 happen haz happen ...

e baby iz kicking me right now ..
itz not so active ..
muh dad haz no choice but 2 kip e baby s itz olrdy goinq 8 monthz ..

but s 4 me ,
@ ferz i did hav e intention of abortinq it ..
but wen mickey scold me not 2 abort e baby ,
i chose 2 hear hym



HAIZH .. IM RIILY STREZZ & DEPREZZ ..
IM LOCK IN MUH HOME WITOUT ANY HP OR CONNECTION ..
DEY DUN GIV ME ANY MONEY ,
OR LET ME OUT ....
DEY SAY DEY R TOO ASHAME IF PPL SAW ME WIT A BIG TUMMY OUTSYD ...
BUT NO MATTER WAD ,
PPL WILL B SEEINQ ME WIT A BIG TUMMY & SOON ,
WIT A BABY ....